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a subtle sort of brilliance ([personal profile] theladyscribe) wrote in [community profile] avandell2008-12-30 03:50 pm

Any deeper blue and you're playing in your grave

Title: Any deeper blue and you're playing in your grave
Characters: Susan Pevensie, others (implied Peter/Susan)
Rating/Warning: PG-13 for disturbing images, mention of abuse
Word Count: 942
Summary: She only has one term of school left, and she moves away after that. Into the city at first, but even that place holds too many memories. She takes what is left of her family's fortune and goes to America.
Notes: Narnia/Supernatural crossover. A different take on what happened to Susan after the events of The Last Battle. Part of the Bruce Springsteen Fic Project (song is "New York City Serenade").

Any deeper blue and you're playing in your grave

The night after the train wreck, Susan dreams about Narnia for the last time. Her brothers and sister are there, looking older, like they did before they left Narnia that first time. Peter is the High King again, the rampant lion emblazoned on his tunic. He stands next to Aslan as they greet the people.

"And what of Queen Susan the Fair?" asks one man.

Aslan curls his lip, and Peter's countenance becomes stern. "She is no longer a friend of Narnia," he intones, voice hard.

Susan wakes with tears in her eyes.


School ends for the term, and that summer Susan stays with her Uncle Harold and Aunt Alberta. Their house smells like wet wool and mouldy cheese, but they leave her alone mostly. She only has one term of school left, and she moves away after that. Into the city at first, but even London holds too many memories. She takes what is left of her family's fortune and buys a one-way ticket to America.


She didn't know then what she knows now. The demon lied to her. It killed not only her parents, but her siblings, too. It wasn't supposed to do that. Peter and Lucy and Edmund – they were supposed to stay with her.


In America, no one knows her. She dyes her hair a lighter shade of brown, takes careful time to look the part of a rich Londoner on permanent holiday, even takes on an aristocrat's accent. She changes her name, calls herself Bela, beautiful, though without Peter whispering it in her ear, she no longer thinks it's true.

In America, she can start over, pretend she never had a brother who whispered things in her ear. She can pretend none of this ever happened. She can forget the look on her father's face when he shut the door that first time, when he told her that Aslan wasn't real. When no one came to save her.


She knows now that the demon that came to her, that offered to make the pain go away, was Lilith. Lilith, whose daughter was Jadis, the White Witch. Lilith, who was bent on avenging her daughter's death.


Bela spends the next seven years making a name for herself as a procurer of rare and occult items. Her customers trust her, but they shouldn't. If she ever finds the thing that she's looking for, the object that will not only destroy Lilith but allow her back into Narnia, they will never hear from her again.

She dismisses the small voice that sounds too much like her brother that says it doesn't matter what she does; she'll never be able to go back to Narnia.

She ignores the one that sounds like the rumble of a lion's roar that says she's a disappointment to Narnia.


When the hounds come for her, she can't find it in herself to care any longer. She has failed Peter, failed Narnia, failed Aslan. And what's worse is that it's the first which hurts the most. The dogs scratch at the door, howling for her, and calmly, she takes down the Devil's Shoestring. She closes her eyes and opens the door and waits.


Hell is consciousness and pain and fear. Alastair comes every day, looking the way her father did, a sick smile on his face.

"There is no High King here," he says with a laugh as he brushes a hand along her face.

Susan wants to cry, but her eyes are dry.

Alastair cuts her deeply, pain like nothing she's ever felt before. He offers to take her down off the rack, to take it all away, if only she will denounce the High King and take up her weapons to cut and slice the others who scream. And every time, she refuses, even as his knife twists further into her.


She knows when Dean Winchester arrives. Everyone does. There's a ripple of fury and pleasure that runs through the masses of demons. Alastair stops paying special attention to her, focusing instead on Dean. She hates herself for being relieved.


It's been a thousand years, but she still holds on. Alastair has returned to give her particular attention again. It breaks her heart when he brings Dean with him that first time; she'd thought, hoped, that he of all people could withstand the torture. He doesn't recognize her, or at least she hopes he doesn't, for both their sakes.

He is the worst of her torturers.

"Come down off the rack," he whispers in her ear, "and it will all be over." His hand brushes through her long dark hair, and if not for the pain, she could pretend she's back in Narnia, lying beside her brother in the grass fields outside Cair Paravel.

She's about to whisper yes when the light blinds her. Time, such as it is, stops, the entirety of Hell silent for the span of a moment, of a century, as the light makes its way to her.

At first she thinks that it's Aslan come at last to rescue her, but it isn't. The light brushes against her, and she can hear Peter's voice calling, singing, joyously, "Further up and further in!" but it passes by. The light wraps itself around Dean, who screams, though whether in pain or in bliss, she cannot tell.

The light begins to fade, and with it, her brother's voice becomes nothing but a shadow.

Alastair returns to his post at her side, slicing deeply into her. "Say yes," he tells her, "and this will all go away."

Susan bites her tongue and holds on just a little longer.


Feedback is treasured.

[identity profile] 2008-12-30 10:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh wow. This is excellent, and horrifying.

[identity profile] 2009-01-01 12:45 am (UTC)(link)
There is....It's just a very small bit. :)

[identity profile] 2008-12-30 11:19 pm (UTC)(link)
That one made me cry! It leaves you dearly wishing for some salvation for Bela. I thought in canon too, Bela's story was tragic.

[identity profile] 2008-12-30 11:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh man. I love you for this, so hardcore. I was thinking about my own spn/narnia crossover, but yours is so good. I don't need to anymore :)

So excellent.

[identity profile] 2008-12-31 12:32 am (UTC)(link)
YESSSSS. Everyone should write more of these, and I've made it my mission in life to convert everyone, ever, to RPattz/KStew. Even those (like me) who, once upon a time, would have rather stick red-hot bamboo slivers under their fingernails.

Ah, the times. How they have changed.

[identity profile] 2008-12-31 03:05 am (UTC)(link)
I know. I'm TERRIBLE.

[identity profile] 2008-12-31 04:14 am (UTC)(link)
You know the unhealthy love I have for this that I demonstrated in Barnes and Noble. Nothing's changed since then. :)
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[identity profile] 2008-12-31 07:28 am (UTC)(link)
OMG I LOVE this Idea.... And she is so strong.... *weeps*

[identity profile] 2008-12-31 07:31 am (UTC)(link)
You know, I usually avoid cross-overs because I just can't see most of those fandoms meshing well, but this was breathtakingly beautiful and hauntingly lovely. Just, so gorgeous, so amazing that you made her into Bela and it just fits. I'm speechless.

-bows to you-

[identity profile] 2008-12-31 01:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, god. This is wonderful and awful at the same time. Thanks so much for sharing it.

[identity profile] 2008-12-31 08:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Absolutely perfect! This was such a clever crossover and the comparison/insertions really worked. Peter and Dean were marvelously captured. Wow. Thank you!

[identity profile] 2009-01-01 11:08 am (UTC)(link)
OMG. this is just freaking amazing. You have let me craving for more. This is just beautiful.

I love these two fandoms and you just made me love them even more. Thank you for this. Now I want narnia/spn fic. Omg.. you got me addicted. Where can I find more? lol.. THanks once again.

[identity profile] 2009-01-02 08:14 am (UTC)(link)

Susan as Bela... works. How did you make it work so well?


Also, how sad! Can't there be a happy ending?

[identity profile] 2009-01-02 02:43 pm (UTC)(link)
I like the twists of Susan and Bela and how they could be one and the same. It's not far-fetched to see Bela as she was potrayed, hard and unapologetic. Thanks for sharing this possibility. I like it more than I thought I would.

[identity profile] 2009-01-03 10:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, this packs a punch. I really like fics that explore life post-Narnia, and I am intrigued by the idea of Susan-as-Bela. The notion that she would weaken in Hell when it was Dean doing the asking also rings really true for me. I'm glad she held out in the end - it gave a little ray of hope.

I loved the way you wove the two fandoms in together - it worked really well.

A great read, thanks.

[identity profile] 2009-01-05 04:32 pm (UTC)(link)
I can finally comment to this BECAUSE I GOT MY CARD TODAY! YAYAYAYAY! I absolutely love that you handwrote it and that it was the longest one of all! *beams* Thank you so much, dear friend, it's completely brilliant and I love it SUPER HARD! <333333
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[identity profile] 2009-01-09 10:11 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, that's heartbreaking. and a really cool way to tie the two sources together.

SPN Roundtable Rec

[identity profile] 2009-01-09 10:22 pm (UTC)(link)
For posterity, recced here...

I just wanted to say somewhere I could be spoilery, that Bela? /blinks/ Wow, I didn't see that coming and you really made it work. Then the part about Dean coming to work on her in Hell was brill. That she witnesses his rescue and is left behind is so harsh yet so believable. A somber and painful fic, but very well done. Kudos.

[identity profile] 2009-01-09 10:25 pm (UTC)(link)
This is genius. I loved it!! Why aren't there more Narnia/Supernatural fics? Those are two of my favorite series!! :D

excellent job!

[identity profile] 2009-01-10 01:33 am (UTC)(link)
this is so vivid and wonderful -- and so sad.
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[identity profile] 2009-01-11 04:02 pm (UTC)(link)

Holy crap that's awesome. The idea, and the execution. The combined tragedy of Susan and Bela is kind of overwhelming! I love it!

[identity profile] 2009-01-14 02:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Gah! Poor Susan. D: And Dean. >.<; Fantastic fic. ^^

[identity profile] 2009-01-22 01:32 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, very interesting. I liked this backstory for Bela.

[identity profile] 2009-02-05 11:04 pm (UTC)(link)
This was amazing. It's the first chronicles of narnia/spn crossover that I have read and now I want to read more. Out of all the pevensie children, Susan was by far my favorite...I think it's because I saw some of my personality inside of her.
The ending was sad...I can only imagine the guilt that Dean felt when he tortured her and it must of doubled immensely when he was freed from hell and she was stuck there with Alistair.
Have you considered writing more narnia/spn crossovers...I think you have a real talent for these crossover fanfics in particular and would be willing to read and review any that you do. Let me know!

[identity profile] 2014-08-30 06:15 am (UTC)(link)
Brief and phenomenal. Totally blew my mind.